You might say that the last section was getting a little paranoid, and I see your point. But remember what Kurt Cobain
said, "Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean they're not after you." The cops might be following you, or they might have
your phone tapped or even your living room or computer. Your friends could be working with them, or figuring out a way to
rip you off. There's any number of things a dealer can worry about.
Paranoia of all shapes and sizes is something almost any dealer must deal with at some point. (If you're not paranoid once
in a while, then something's probably wrong with your perspective.) But paranoia, generally speaking, is something to avoid,
one, because it's not fun, and two, because cops can smell fear so the more paranoid you are, the more likely they are to
notice you or target you.
So a good dealer must find that fine line between constant awareness, thoughtfulness, and preparedness versus paranoia.
Unfortunately this is a psychological issue and other than the couple ideas I'll give, you'll have to figure out your own
ways of dealing with paranoia.
I feel that much of a dealer's paranoia comes from breaking per own rules. When you break one of your own rules of conduct,
it becomes blatantly obvious that you're taking a legal risk, whereas before you might not have thought about it. Sometimes
individuals will convince you to break your rules for convenience sake, and perhaps sometimes you will, but somehow you must
find the perspective and confidence to not let things go too far and get too risky. If someone makes you nervous about the
way pe does business, talk to the person, and if pe's unwilling to change, consider not doing business with that person anymore.
Remember that it's important not to ignore paranoia. Paranoia or simple nervousness is your subconscious telling you that
something is wrong. For your first few deals, and every time you do a deal that's larger than what you're used to, you'll
probably have to override your paranoia, and just deal with it. But do not deny its existence, and don't choose to override
your subconscious until you understand what it has to say.
But one thing to consider when trying to deal with paranoia is the actual, real-world statistics, as compared to other
dangerous activities in life. Take for example the automobile. Every time you sell a sack, there's a chance you'll get busted.
Every time you go for a drive, there's a chance you'll die in a car crash. But these chances vary greatly depending on how
safe you are in your car or in your drug dealing. A person who gets in a car, is risking death, dismemberment, the destruction
of the automobile, and the potential of killing a pedestrian or another driver. A small-time drug dealer who sells a forty
sack is risking a night in jail and a small fine (usually significantly less than you've made by selling), depending, of course
on your location.
Another simple way to deal with paranoia, is to simply understand that you are doing absolutely nothing wrong. When you
drive a car, you put other lives at risk, you support terrorism by buying their gasoline, you support pavement and the rape
of the forests, and you're supporting smog and the destruction of Earth's ozone layer. If you sell marijuana, you're supporting
peace, friendship, compassion, freedom, and getting high; nothing more. If you believe in God and heaven and hell, then you
can rest assured that regardless of what the government may think of you, you will be rewarded in the afterlife for being
a good person and not selling out to The Man. If you believe in karma, then just keep believing in it. Most criminals become
paranoid not because they're afraid of being caught on a logical level, but because they know they've done something wrong,
and deserve to be caught. It's important for you, as a marijuana dealer, to understand that you're not doing anything wrong.
Marijuana dealers are not criminals, and shouldn't be thought of as such, as the laws do not really exist, because they are